The day has finally arrived. My boys came to the airport to say goodbye,
thanks to their dad for bringing them through, gratitude. My eldest son says, “your back pack is
so light” and I smile and reply “just like my heart right now” I don’t think he
heard me but then again, I may not have said it out aloud as we made our way to
the check in. Loads of hugs and love goodbye as I head off on a little life
adventure on my own.
I’m alone for now and as I sit at the airport,
I can’t wipe the grin off my face. No
making lunches or doing school runs for a couple of weeks. Now don’t get me wrong, I know when all 3
boys have finished school, I am sure I will wish I could pack lunches and do
school runs again. For now, it’s just a
break that I need to reconnect with myself.
Remember moms, you can be a mom and a woman with adventure too don’t
ever lose her.
I arrive in Dublin and hop on a bus down to
Cork to meet up with my wonderful Dad and Aunty Carol for a week or so. I am on the bus for not even half an hour and
tears start to roll down my cheeks. Now
you may think I am crazy here so hear me out.
My tears were the joy I felt in my heart, it was the pure sense of
gratitude I felt for how far I have come on my journey as a single mom. How proud I am of my boys and how blessed I am
to be me and to have found the free spirit in me again amongst life’s craziness. It felt like I arrived home after years of
being away, it was a mind, body and soul connection that I can’t describe, and
I don’t think I have the wording in my vocab to be honest.
If you are reading this and your journey as a solo mother has made you really have to dig deep, work a few jobs and pull
out all the stops for life to be fabulous you will completely get what I have
just shared. You know those days, weeks
or months where you are asking God when life is going to lighten up on you for
a bit. When you are holding it all
together day in and day out and actually want to sit in the corner of a room
and cry your eyes out.
Let’s be real here for a minute ok, as moms we
often put on a brave face and smile. We often do this because we don’t want our
children to worry or we don’t want to burden anyone else. Then suddenly life shows up to help, it’s
like those magic moments when you have a puncture before you leave the house
and a friend happens to drive past just at that time and say “can I support and
take your kids to school while you wait for road side assistance” those moments
when you look up and say THANK YOU for this angel today.
Showing gratitude for everything and looking
for the lessons along the way has been my compass year after year. So, with all the beautiful thoughts rushing
through my head and all my gratitude, my body just reacted with beautiful happy
tears.
I spend the rest of my bus trip down to Cork
with a heart filled with gratitude.